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Turning 40 in a few hours and I have to say, not really looking forward to it. I'm leaving my thirties behind but I accomplished having two beautiful boys in my 30's and living in two nice homes, starting a DJ business, I.T. business and I have a nice truck which are many of the pro's to my thirties. The con's are my future ex-wife Julie, house is going into foreclosure, housing market and the united states economy is horrible, my job is hanging on by a string and my future ex-wife Julie is now going to be in my life for 17 more years.
No birthday bash, but my family is getting together, I'm taking the boys and not inviting Julie to this one since I'm tired of being called an idiot or just give her more fuel to share with her friends. I'm done trying to be her friend. She is the one that keeps putting up the walls so to the hell with her. I don't need her as my friend, I have lots of those (in Michigan).
It will be the first birthday I will be spending alone (without a special someone... no birthday sex) in a long time but it'll probably do me some good. Time to reset and focus on getting the ugly out of my life and concentrating on getting some positive in my life. Surrounded by someone so negative for so long wears on you. Walking on eggshells, afraid of upsetting her and going through the arguments.
My 40's have to be better. I vow to spend more time with my kids, I vow to concentrate on finding the happiness I had before I got married, I vow to not let someone drag me down as far as she has, I vow to voice my opinion before it the decision eats me alive.
So 40's, here I come.
No birthday bash, but my family is getting together, I'm taking the boys and not inviting Julie to this one since I'm tired of being called an idiot or just give her more fuel to share with her friends. I'm done trying to be her friend. She is the one that keeps putting up the walls so to the hell with her. I don't need her as my friend, I have lots of those (in Michigan).
It will be the first birthday I will be spending alone (without a special someone... no birthday sex) in a long time but it'll probably do me some good. Time to reset and focus on getting the ugly out of my life and concentrating on getting some positive in my life. Surrounded by someone so negative for so long wears on you. Walking on eggshells, afraid of upsetting her and going through the arguments.
My 40's have to be better. I vow to spend more time with my kids, I vow to concentrate on finding the happiness I had before I got married, I vow to not let someone drag me down as far as she has, I vow to voice my opinion before it the decision eats me alive.
So 40's, here I come.
